I’ll Be buts & ands – A.A.


I’ll Be Buts & Ands

Be it what it is, life becomes a jumble of be’s.
Never one, never the other, the lanes remain where they lay.
I’m not an activist, but I am a questioner.
I’m not a pacifist, but I do not wish for war.
My confusion is my enemy but allows for my growth.
My ego is a bit of both but not what I wish to know.
Love is my eternal growth but sex is my calm me down.
Secrets are my demons and my scapegoat.
I want to live my dreams but my dreams don’t reflect reality.
I want to love my reality but my reality does not reflect my dreams.
What does that mean for me? What does it mean to be?
I wish to know but I wish for more.
Too many wishes; so little more.
But I can change that.
Maybe I will change that.

- A.A.